Just books.

"I wanted love to conquer all. But love can't conquer anything. It can't do anything on its own. It relies on us to do the conquering on its behalf."
~Everyday by David Levithan

"Does she really want to know, or is she just being polite? I feel as if she could be talking to anybody. And while I once thought what I wanted from her was this normal, everyday tone, now that I have it, the normalcy disappoints."

I would recommend the first two books at the bottom. Worth reading! :-)
Will do a book review. Later before school starts. I'll keep you posted :D


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God and His miracles.

Every single day, every little detail of our everyday lives are miracles. For me, there are no small or little miracles. 

Miracles.
I have only realized its true meaning last May 8, 2013.

Terrified, anxious, pitiful. I could describe myself at that time with these 3 words.
I know I know it was a mistake but it was an honest mistake.
I was thinking the whole time that, "I didn't mean it. I was just distracted."

I wanted to turn back time. But before you go thinking that I killed someone's dog or anything.
It was just as simple as I lost my cellphone last May 8, 2013 while riding an FX going to Robinsons.
I wasn't afraid of the fact that it has all the contacts of my friends since elementary. Or it's a new phone and among the new versions of Alcatel.

I was afraid of the ridicule and judgement I was going to have when everyone hears that I lost my phone because I was burara and kalat. 
God knows I didn't mean for it to happen. Really.
God heard me that day, apparently.

God was always listening and this I proved because I got my phone back the next day.

How is it a miracle you say? First, how many FX are there going to robinsons for us to even begin searching? How many people could have ridden the said FX after we got off? How many people would have returned it when they found it?

I always thought there are only a few good people in this world.
It was my cat and my mom. (Just kidding.)
But then, I got my phone back. The next morning, the robinsons pips contacted me.
Sabi pa nila, "Ma'am positive. Kunin niyo na lang ng 2pm."

It was mind blowing. I. could. not. believe. it. at. all.

After all, I thought it was hopeless.
I thought I deserved it kasi I was not being careful.

Pero God heard my prayers.
While I was walking inside Megamall, after searching and searching for like hours. 
I was bracing myself. That I'd give up.

But then, my phone was still ringing and ringing and ringing. Even before I knew that someone returned my phone. It was ringing and ringing and ringing.
Honestly, this gave me hope.

When you have the slightest possibility or chance, quick, grab hold of it. Hold onto that slightest possibility, even if it seems impossible, it's possible with God.

Don't give up. 
I thank my mom so much for this. She was the one who pushed me. Who told me, there is still a chance.

It might be only a phone. In fact, since it's new, it has no sentimental value at all.
But it taught me one thing. That you have to be strong. Even when all hope's lost, be strong.

Miracles they say are too overrated. You can't actually say this, unless you really get to experience a life-changing miracle.
It was God's way of showing me and helping me understand a lot of things.

It was God's way to prepare me for the problems I have to handle this school year.
I know it! Because when I found out that the driver behind the wheel was actually a pastor.

I had no doubts. God's moving in my life.  

Yes, you heard me right.
A pastor was the driver of the fx. Every Wednesday, he works until 2 pm only and does talks at night in his church. I was shocked when I was told about this. 

How in the world would we "coincidentally" ride an FX with a pastor behind the wheel who would have a talk on a Wednesday night and has to go home at 2 pm, the same time we got off his FX? 

I am not lucky. I am really blessed by God.

When I got hold of my phone, I was thinking, Did I do some good deed in this world that some person did a good deed for me?

Later, after a few days, I got to talk to my dad, he was the one who claimed my phone because he was nearby.

Surprisingly, the pastor didn't even knew there was a phone in his car until later around noon.
Some passenger found it already, and yes, hindi niya binulsa. Binalik niya at sinabing may nakaiwan.

My faith in humanity was restored.
There are good people in this world.
You just have to see the goodness in everything.


Coincidence? No. It's a miracle.

Let go, Let God!


PS. God bless yung mga barker both sa Megamall and Robinsons. Sobrang sobrang helpful nila. :) :) They weren't cranky at all despite being under the sun all day on top of yelling "pasig pasig" God bless the passenger, and God bless the pastor. I wanted to put a photo of them here in my blog. but my dad wasn't able to took one because they were busy, but if you get to ride an FX with different billiard balls near their windshield, it's him. A new crosswind. This is as much as I can share. 

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