Working, studying and being a hopeless romantic, all at the same time

It's really been a long time since I last posted here. Obviously the title says why I'm so busy lately.

There's just really something about this day. Both good and bad.

Today was awesome. I started it by celebrating mass. The Word of the Lord was practically telling me what I should do. I really felt that God is talking to me. Through the smiles of the church-goers, the choir and the other servers, my day's been complete already.

Going home and eventually going to school, I see my friends again. I miss them. I rarely hang out after class anymore. We were able to exchange few stories with each other, just updates with each other's lives. Then I'm off running to my next activity for the day.

At 1 pm, I left school to go to Guadalupe Catholic School to take part in their career fair. I don't know but I really have a passion in public speaking. I like getting everyone's attention, amazing them and leaving them speechless after I'm done. There's just really fulfillment in it.

Beating the time before I become late again, I arrived 14 min. before 4 at Starbucks. I was nervous because it was the day of my certification but I know I can very much handle it. I was able to review the days before and memorize my notes cover to cover.

I passed Blk 1 then was introduced to Blk 2. My day's really just been sooo awesome. I was able to socialize with a few of my coworkers. Get to know why they're there and how do they feel working there. Every day, in every little thing, I want to find meaning in what I do because that's just how I am.

I am sentimental and a hopeless romantic. I feel that God sends people in my life for a purpose.

But lately, things have been rough on my part.
I got betrayed, judged, ridiculed and really just been taken for granted lately.

Now, you can't take away from me this doubt, anxiety, and fear.
I feel my heart breaking right now. Never mind the reason.

But literally, I feel my heart being shattered. I guess, no matter what I do, some person will always be better than me. More smarter, more good-looking, funnier than me.

And that's okay because I don't plan on pleasing anyone anymore.

I've been there and I've done that.
It's all too tiring and you'll never please them anyway.

You'll never convince yourself that you're enough unless you believe in your truest, deepest core that you are.

So now that I am practicing to become more positive.
And I'm a work in progress to become a better version of myself,

I shall see the things the way I want to see them.

It's only a bad day, not a bad life.

The best things in life, are definitely free.
Great friendships with the best set of friends, whom I really miss so much

It's Abby's birthday btw, greet her today!

I have a great great great great family:

Nothing can really be more awesome than this. :-)

There are far more good things that happened today than bad ones. 
So... I guess, I'm sleeping it off and hoping for a better sunshine tomorrow.


Good night!! *wink